Monadingus
Salutations, greetings, hello, hi, 'sup, mothers and fuckers of the jury, and all that jazz. 'Tis I, a total disappointment to few but myself and a partial disappointment to all but few. Welcome to a section of hell that's just as hot as a graham cracker is spicy and half as unbearable as the concept of Cheetos dipped in Nutella. It's rambling time!
As you can see, my self-esteem is basically nonexistent, and I credit half of that to teenage angst originating from learning kindergarten and grade 1 content at 1.5x the normal speed of a public school curriculum. (Why am I revealing the non-tragic part of my tragic backstory again? Oh right, because I'm rambling and don't want to remember the tragic portion. I'll stop myself before I end up typing something I'll regret sharing and be too stubborn to remove it.)
Other stuff about me that you don't need to know but can anyway because I don't exactly hide it from people I have irl contact with if I'm asked to share:
- I can get very over-excited about things and about sharing them, regardless of whether or not people care about or understand what I speak of. If you see that I'm starting to go into a big, poorly-done explanation of a foreign concept that you don't want to put in pointless time and effort into reading or listening to, don't be afraid to point it out.
- Alternatively, please correct me on any misunderstandings I have of a subject I ramble about that you do understand and know.
- I am somewhat of the position that the concept gender-based interests and items is an unnecessary and limiting but possibly comforting social construct, and I would care less if certain people I knew didn't get comfort from it
- I see romance as a spectator sport (and I'm emotionally mature enough to realize that I'm not emotionally stable enough to hold a legitimate romantic relationship that won't be detrimental to at least 1 party's mental and/or emotional health
- My sexual orientation is "Anything I find hot that has the emotional maturity and cognitive ability to understand the implications of sex, has the physical ability to clearly and undeniable express consent and lack thereof, is emotionally stable enough to be willing to express said consent or lack thereof at any given point in time, and is willing to go through with such an act". (TL, DR: I don't consider gender identity but I do have moral standards)
- My general interests include:
- Video Games
- 3D and 2D-Platform Fighters
- Racing games
- Turn-based or real-time action RPGs
- Minecraft (modded, vanilla, and non-mod server plugins that can function similar to mods
- Reading
- Mostly fanfiction, but also generally any story genre if the work is well-written and the characters are somewhat relatable
- Of fanfiction, I primarily tend to read types of stories:
- Angst with conflict resolution, but not entirely removing negative feelings from the equation
- Fluff that may or may not have a little angst mixed in
- GC Crack that allows myself to disassociate my current emotions, whatever they may be, from reality
- No A/B/O stories
- Of fanfiction, I primarily tend to read types of stories:
- Either very short things that can be read in a single sitting or works spanning a decently long time that I can fully immerse myself in (basically 1-3 chapters or 20+ chapters
- Mostly fanfiction, but also generally any story genre if the work is well-written and the characters are somewhat relatable
- Learning new things I actually did not know (except spoilers)
- Video Games
- Things I very much do not enjoy
- Hyper-realistic or real-life gore images or recordings/animations of hyper-realistic or real-life injuries, especially involving finger/toe nails and teeth (verbal/written descriptions are generally okay)
- Angst that is too relatable
- Bad vibes from friends
- Generally being unable to help or be productive in something I have legitimate interest in
- I don't think I have any triggers that can send me into a panic attack or something along those lines, so feel free to discuss most subjects with me (however, don't expect me to be very knowledgeable in any given subject, to be a very good conversational partner, or to be consistently active in a conversation for a long period of time).